Let me start by saying.. I really do love my life, I like my new job, I enjoy spending time with my family and friends. The people in my life bring me so much joy.
However, the past few months have been harder than I had admitted to.. I tended to suppress my feelings by drinking and eating or whatever I felt like. I think I was more vulnerable than I realized, more "needy" than I wanted to be. And to be honest I'm not very proud of some of the things I did. I'll just leave it at that..
So I wanted to cleanse myself both emotionally and physically. I was talking to a good friend of mine who is a raw vegan. Yep only raw fruits and vegetables.. hard right? Nope, not at all, at least not the eating part.. the feeling part was a whole different story. It's weird when you don't have "comfort" food or alcohol to run to when you're feeling down, something to numb you to "get you through" that rough patch.
I learned some things in those 13 days.. (random number of days that I did it before going to Omaha) I learned that I had so things that were blocking me from moving on, things maybe I knew but didn't want to admit. So I challenged myself to work through it and continue to do so every day.
Oh yeah now I'm a vegetarian.. Except for sushi, but really the whole experience of eating sushi is more spiritual than a meal right? So this is how I feel today.. who knows what tomorrow will bring??
Pics of Katy
This is how it all started, I have friends that are supportive and friends that are competitive. At times I would think why can't we just do these events for fun? It was never like that with this group of gals, especially for Subrina. But the day we found out that Katy was diagnosed with Ovarian cancer we all became the supportive kind. It was a blow to us, we thought no way this could be happening. It's something we hear about, not live through. It's been a year and a half since Katy's diagnosis and we're left with her memories. But I know one thing Katy would be proud of, and that's the fact that we've all stayed friends and have made new ones along the way. Our mission is simple, it's to help spread awareness for early detection of Ovarian cancer. All of our friends will be doing events, runs, cycling, wine tasting, beerfests (hey competition is competition!) and along the way we'll be spreading the word.Stay tuned for what stories we learn along the way! Katy was an amazing, inspiring person who truely lived life to the fullest. We love and miss you much.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Oops...
I let it happen.. I let time pass and now it's just been awhile since I've posted anything. But I have been busy with baseball games, following Cal State Fullerton where my newphew plays. From Sacramento to San Luis Obispo to Omaha, NE where the baseball college world series is held. What a ride it's been, I love sports, love baseball, and love my family. A great combination and so much fun along the way. And although I'm fortunate to be so close to my given family, I miss my "chosen family".... my friends.
Sometimes it's hard because we are spread out geographically. I miss the luxury of just stopping by to say hi.. or going to dinner. But now that baseball is over, my weekends are free again to schedule some new adventures. I like being spontaneous and it's summer time.. which means, 4th of July parties, boating weekends, BBQs, rides, runs etc. Man I love my life and look forward to the good times ahead.
peace and love to all
Sometimes it's hard because we are spread out geographically. I miss the luxury of just stopping by to say hi.. or going to dinner. But now that baseball is over, my weekends are free again to schedule some new adventures. I like being spontaneous and it's summer time.. which means, 4th of July parties, boating weekends, BBQs, rides, runs etc. Man I love my life and look forward to the good times ahead.
peace and love to all
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